I grew up, like most girls, watching the Disney princesses find true love and live happily ever after. I always wanted to be them. I wanted the prince to come and sweep me off of my feet. I wanted to be romanced and rescued. Loved and cherished until the end of time. I wanted that perfect life until the end of time. Well, I am older now and I know that fairytales don't exist. Happily ever after is only for a while. But there is one thing from those stories and movies that I know exists and that is love.
I know there is a prince out there for me. Now, I know he is not perfect by any means. He's not gonna slay the dragon or rescue me like some damsel in distress. Heck, I don't want him to!! I want him to want me and tell me so. That's it. I want us to come to the table whole, not needing each other for selfish reasons or as a crutch, so that we can come together and make something for God. I want to fight by his side and hold him up when he needs support along the way. I want him, in turn, to be able to be my support when I fail. When one of us needs encouragement, I want us to give it. When one of us lacks faith, I want us to pray together for strength. I want to be his right hand. I want to be the one who surprises him just because I can. I want to know who he is and know what makes him happy. I want to be all I can be for him especially if that means calling on God to help me grow and learn more. Someday my prince will come....and we won't ride into the sunset but, instead, I will take his hand and we will walk side-by-side down the road of life praying for God to be with us. Only then will we be ready for whatever comes our way be it wicked witches, dragons, or just life itself.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
I never really knew
I never knew how much control i have over how my day goes. I was having a really crappy morning. My thought my ipod crashed and I couldn't get ready or finish my chores. I had to catch a trolley to class. I have 3 presentations and 2 essays this week. And I woke up crabby. But I decided to be positive and optimistic about the day. And it is working. I am laughing and not even faking it! I am smiling and meaning it! And I am not even really stressed about my week. I know God is with me and he has better things for me to be invlved in than worrying about a broken USB port :)
Monday, November 10, 2008
Finding gold
Francis Chan was talking in chapel today about how everything is for God's glory and how we have no right to expect anything. But he also mentioned something about accepting people and it reminded me of a friend of mine....
She is one of my dearest friends. I might even call her one of my best friends. She's one of the most amazing people I know! I love her very much :) But there are times when she will start telling a story or go to make a comment about what someone has said and she suddenly stops and gets this look on her face. It is a look of fear, guilt, and surprise at herself for almost slipping. She freezes and she doesn't know what to do. It was only lately that I began to realize that her past is shadier than she likes to let on to most people. It is these frozen moments where she was about to tell me something about the person she used to be. She knows from past experience that most are not accepting of who she was. She knows that she will be condemmed for what she did. But I am not most people...I don't care who she was or what she did. If anything I want to know about it so that I can see how much she has grown and become even more of who God wants her to be. It takes a bit of encouragement before she opens up and tells me what she had originally intended to tell me. But I just smile and look at her and say, "That is not the girl you are now. You are a woman of God and you do not have to be labeled by your past. I am your friend and I love you. I accept you, sketchy past and all!"
I was struck with the reality of this during chapel and with the realization that this is who God has called me to be. He has called me to be a friend to everyone, but especially to those who are so used to one version of humanity. I love seeing the look on my friend's face when she realizes that I am not going to judge her in the least bit. it's like she has struck gold. These are the blessings God has bestowed on me to share with others: acceptance and forgiveness. I will use these gifts to the best of my ability to bring glory to my heavenly Father.
She is one of my dearest friends. I might even call her one of my best friends. She's one of the most amazing people I know! I love her very much :) But there are times when she will start telling a story or go to make a comment about what someone has said and she suddenly stops and gets this look on her face. It is a look of fear, guilt, and surprise at herself for almost slipping. She freezes and she doesn't know what to do. It was only lately that I began to realize that her past is shadier than she likes to let on to most people. It is these frozen moments where she was about to tell me something about the person she used to be. She knows from past experience that most are not accepting of who she was. She knows that she will be condemmed for what she did. But I am not most people...I don't care who she was or what she did. If anything I want to know about it so that I can see how much she has grown and become even more of who God wants her to be. It takes a bit of encouragement before she opens up and tells me what she had originally intended to tell me. But I just smile and look at her and say, "That is not the girl you are now. You are a woman of God and you do not have to be labeled by your past. I am your friend and I love you. I accept you, sketchy past and all!"
I was struck with the reality of this during chapel and with the realization that this is who God has called me to be. He has called me to be a friend to everyone, but especially to those who are so used to one version of humanity. I love seeing the look on my friend's face when she realizes that I am not going to judge her in the least bit. it's like she has struck gold. These are the blessings God has bestowed on me to share with others: acceptance and forgiveness. I will use these gifts to the best of my ability to bring glory to my heavenly Father.
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