Pain

I know it's been a while, but I had nothing to talk about before. I do now. I'm so lost now. I have no idea where I am going. No idea what I am doing. No idea what I am thinking. All I know is what I feel and that is pain and loneliness. I've never felt so....ugh. Just when i thought next year was going to be my pick-me-up, it all comes crashing down. My friends are leaving and not just any friends, my best friends. I don't have anyone to live with. I'll probably end up at home. I feel so alone. I am struggling right now; how am I going to survive next semester? I am literally falling on my knees, crying out for guidance and deliverance. This isn't fair. I'm already dealing with other things. Do my friends really have to leave? Why does everything have to change? Why can't it all work out for once? I hate this! God, why? Why now? Why me? Why us? They are in pain. I'm in pain. I know it's good, but still! Please, love on us all. Comfort us. Guide us. Our lives are in Your hands.