Tunnel

Wow. I never thought it would come to this. I never thought it would just end. There was always that hope. I thought it was a growing hope too. I could see the light at the end of the tunnel. But now....the tunnel caved in. I can't go back. I can hear the train coming. I'm stuck in here. There is no out. There is no changing things. I'm forced to brace myself for the impact of emotions. It's all my fault. Had I known, things would have happened so differently. had I known this would be the end result.....I would have tried harder. I didn't mean for you to leave. I didn't know that you were so upset with me, that you could only handle spending small amounts of time with me. I would have....well, I don't know what I would have done, but I wouldn't have let it come to this. No I sit here in the dark, sobbing. Never have I ever had such a terrible thing happen because of me. I am crushed; I am hurt; I am weak......I am so sorry.